Sometimes I forget to breathe.
And I know some people can turn that into a dumb blonde joke.
Whatever.
But I just exhaled,
like really, actually, literally, physically exhaled...
and it was amazing.
Like, stars-in-a-jar amazing.
Do it.
Take a big breath.
And let it ALLLLL out.
Doesn't it feel nice?
Mine was more refreshing than a long hot shower, and we all know how much I love those.
breathtaking, right?
***
All commission sewing projects are done and gone
Pictures uploaded to computer
New sewing area (finally) created in new house
(the hubby was not a fan of me using the kitchen table- so, my plan worked- ha!)
Computer/office nook set up
(no more computer on chair, mouse on scrap of fabric on table, keyboard on lap)
Last of the boxes unpacked
40 envelopes addressed, stuffed, stamped and sent
Garage sale OVER
Dishes done
Babies sleeping
Laundry going
Hubby out with long-time-no-see best friend
Lights down low
TV OFF
Pandora ON
(sing it, Adele)
writing now...
Sometimes, I just get way too caught up in what's happening next
that I forget
to focus on
what's happening now.
It's a constant struggle for me.
I have to realize that
there will always be deadlines,
I will always have laundry,
some thing- whatever that 'thing' may be- will always need to be done,
there will always be DIY projects on Pinterest that beckon my name,
my inbox will always have emails that need replies,
I will never run out of family members to call,
someone will always be expecting something of me,
and my house will never be completely clean.
And that's ok.
Because there will also always be a 'now'.
Lots of things happen 'now'.
And I need to stop thinking about what needs to be done and worry about what is being done,
because there's nothing like the present
or something like that, right?
I think a lot of women have this problem.
We try to be everything by doing everything.
Guess what?
That's stupid.
And we are a smart bunch, I like to think.
Oh, we can get shit done, if you know what I mean.
But nobody can do everything, let's get real.
Oh, we can get shit done, if you know what I mean.
But nobody can do everything, let's get real.
So, to all of you
stay-at-home-moms, working moms, single moms, new moms,
single ladies busting your butts, married ladies busting your butts,
wives, daughters, sisters, girlfriends, college goers, law school students, waitresses...
sit down, relax, and exhale.
And know- even if it's just for this moment- that you. are. everything.
You are doing exactly what you need to be doing.
You are being.
And that is a beautiful thing.
And so are you.
I was going to post all latest quilts/finishes/sewing projects tonight,
but then I figured I couldn't post those until I posted Willow's birthday pics from August
(yeah, August),
and then I started thinking about my Grandpa Paul and how I really need to call him to let him know that I got his letter,
which got me thinking about all the letters that I sent out (wait-did they all go out?),
which got me thinking about the new big quilt that's in the works,
which got me thinking about my blocks I need to finish for my charity circle,
which made me think about the best way to organize my scraps in my new studioish area,
which made me think about where in the world I'm going to actually plug in my sewing machine down there,
which made me think that I never found a bobbin cover for my friend's sewing machine like I said I would forever ago,
which made me think of her birthday presents,
which made me think about Willow's party and the lack of post and/or uploaded pictures for the rest of my family to see.
See what I mean?
EXHALE.
I'm working on it...
I needed a little boost tonight,
so I figured somebody else out there might need one, too.
I tried to be as non-girl-powerish as possible while still keepin' it real.
Oh gosh. I love you SO much. And I needed this so much -- tonight, especially. EXHALE. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI love reading posts like this. It's always at the right time. There are the usual couple blogs that I always hit when it's time to get re-inspired, but I just happened over here since I hadn't checked on your latest projects in awhile and I *thought* you had a new baby...haven't made it that far down yet for that post. So I happened upon this Exhale post and THANK YOU! You read my mind and I think I am going to embrace that not being in control is sometimes the most beautiful thing in the world.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Your baby bedding creations inspired my little girl's bedding, you helped me locate my dream fabric. I'll have to shoot you a picture!
Whoa, longest comment ever. Now excuse me while I DON'T go do laundry and unload the dishwasher and finish putting away laundry and plant the new flowers I just bought and seal the wood fort in the backyard and take a shower and clean up the aftermath of just purchasing a big boy bed for my son and wrap the birthday present for the party we're crashing this afternoon....exhale... ;)
I get to work late (before school arrangements for Somer had fallen through).
ReplyDeleteFrazzled and scattered, I bitch to girlfriend across my cube about how I just need a break to figure out what to do with my life.
An hour later she emails me and says I must read your post.
So glad I did...from the first words to the last words.
Thanks for writing...needed this today :)
You amaze me...again...through tears of pride and empathy. I needed this, and I am SO GLAD to be your Mom. You are a too-beautiful-for-words being, Madi. I heart you to pieces.
ReplyDelete(If I could figure out how to sign this, I would...so I'm sure it will say "anonymous" again! Ha!